supermanny91's Blog

So I managed just to suck it up and send this girl a friend request on facebook, i know it sounds pathetic but it took a lot haha!! It has been a couple of days and i am hoping she just hasn't checked her facebook but i think my dream of this movie style romance is slowly wilting like an un-watered rose. Although on the upside i have applied for a job on a cruise ship (not to stalk her) because i love travelling and i am the kind of person who will do anything and think i would definitely suit working on the entertainment team as i am not shy what so ever. Also i don't think i am ready to go back home to England and settle into a routine!  I still don't want to give up on this girl, she is worth a lot more than that...but i don't want to become pathetic with no hope. In other news, my friend is coming over from england and we are going to travel up to boston which i am excited about!! I will keep you all posted, you never know, true love may find it's way to me! 

Am i naive or romantic for wanting the kind of love you see in movies? I have been in love with the same girl for 5 years nearly, we were in a relationship for 3 1/2 of these and never really stopped seeing each other, even after i found out she slept with my best friend. This was until i moved to america for a year an au pair, i did this for many reasons, mainly because i love travelling and working with kids and also because i was running away from the issues back home. I have seen other girls since this one but nobody has ever compared and made me feel the way i do about her, that was until this week. I have just got back from a 7 day cruise and i fell for this amazingly beautiful girl who worked on the ship, we spoke a fair bit but now i am scared i will never see her again all due to my fear of rejection. You can find the full story of this in my stories!! I love romantic movies, not very manly i know but i dream about the kind of love you see in 'Friends with benefits, definitely maybe' etc. My question to you is 'Am i a fool for believing this?' I want to pursue this girl and do what i can to be with her or atleast find out if she wants to be with me, but i am not sure if i am sure a hopeless romantic clutching at straws? This girl gives me goosebumps whenever i think about her, she even made me go shy around her which is extremely unlike me! But if you want something bad enough, you will find a way to make it happen right?